Lest you get the wrong impression…

As I walk to the bedroom with a crying Jay I comment, "that was a mistake."
A moment later, Angela replies, "This whole day has been a mistake."
No truer words have ever been spoken.
 
The days that have really been "a mistake" have been few and far between since I was in high school getting upset at my mom or brother. But today was definitely one of them. I won’t go into all the gruesome details (which you’re all probably dying to hear … I would be). Anyways, let’s just say church in a completely foreign language doesn’t go so well … especially when you are changing the babys feeding schedule and the toddler is still emotional over the 4 day absence of her best-friend slash mother. Lunch didn’t come till 2pm (a little late, even for us adults). Naptime shouldn’t usually last past 6pm … but can you blame us after that kind of morning? (Did I forget to mention the fall, the screaming children in the playroom, the longest sermon ever preached, worship with a blank screen, over priced lunch, etc.) And so…
 
To cap the day off (8.30pm), Cassie sees us typing and says, "watch my movie now, please?"
Daddy, ever the television watchdog replies, "maybe tomorrow."
Not to be outdone, the bright young little girl responds in that gentle but persistent voice, "maybe now daddy."
 
Well, they say you can’t win them all… on those days, its just easier to give in. Anyway, though Angela and I both had several "exchange of words", we’ve said our "sorry’s" and "forgive you’s".
 
*As a final word, we didn’t give in – no movie tonight. But the little girly is definitely getting WAY too smart.
** You know, I’ve heard many moms and dads say some of the quotes their kids make and I never really understood the big deal. I’m beginning to understand…

A great time in Armenia

After three weeks of training in Sweden we sent out a team of four bible teachers to Armenia (this is the 3rd team we have sent there). This team has been there for 6 weeks and they have had a great time together! FUN is definitely the word I would use to describe this team’s experience. I had the privilege of going to Armenia for their last week to help debrief them. I had one on one’s with all of them, we went out for a fun night of dinner, dessert and fun, we had a group debriefing session, it was so great to hear all their stories and experiences as they taught the bible in churches all over Armenia. Thank you Josh, Anna, Charity and Saana for all your hard work! Many people were blessed because of you!
 
Our other team went to Thailand and sadly we couldn’t be with them in their last week, but I know they made a huge difference as well! Thank you Uan, Josh and Sarah for your consistent hard work! Hope you had a great time snorkelling during the last few days of debriefing!

Transition

A few weeks ago we were in a time of transition between Sweden and Ukraine. We made a short video during our last week in Sweden. The information is a little dated, but we still thought you might like to see it. Enjoy!

So cold we can ice skate!

Finally the heat wave has broken, it is now only around 25 and it feels GREAT! It isn’t quite cold enough to ice skate but yesterday we went with our coworkers to an indoor ice rink for some team building time. We were allowed to skate for 45 minutes for around $1.50. It was so much fun! Cassie put on skates for the first time and while she barely let her feet touch the ice, she had a great first experience! We have to keep that Canadian culture, so ice skating is a big part of that! You can see some pictures on the left side of the page.

Still hot!

It is true, as I write this the sweat is dripping down my neck and there isn’t a fan to be found anywhere (I guess they have all been bought up!) It is easy to look at the negatives of a place when everything is new, and so we have started a ‘Great things about our new home’ list. We placed a white board near our door and so everytime we think of a good thing about where we now live we write it down. After one we week here we have written:
-A market really close by with everything we could need
-People help with strollers (up and down the stairs) without being asked
-We have a wonderful apartment
-Cars will stop to let strollers cross the street
-We have great SBS friends / coworkers
-There are beautiful walks and avenues
-Cell phones are super cheap, AND we even have a landline (see how to contact us farther down the page)
-Our apartment came with a washing machine
-Our ministry leader is very capable and wise
-Our friends have been super helpful
We still have a long way to go to feel settled but we are on our way. Please keep praying for us as we go through the normal culture shock to do it well and feel ‘normal’ soon.
 
 

Ukraine!

We made it! We are in the land of the perogy!
 
Our welcome night was wonderful! The team we are joining for this first year welcomed us with a dinner – homemade perogies and borscht!! It was really great! So now we are slowly cooking in the heat (over 35 the whole week!). You’ve probably seen the heat wave on the news, apparently there is some drought here and in Russia that is creating havoc. Anyway, we are doing well and beginning to adjust – although we don’t really have good access to internet at the moment. But our apartment does have a phone line – you can try giving us a call (we are 8 hours ahead so don’t call after 2pm. :) From North America, dial 001-380-44-295-2756. We’d love to hear from you!
 
Love from the whole sweating little family!

Saying Goodbye

Even though we knew we would be in Sweden for only 3.5 months, we still chose to give totally of ourselves in terms of relationships. We didn’t hold back. We let our hearts get filled up with love for the people that we lived with and worked with in Restenas Sweden, and we aren’t at all sorry. Even though it is hard to say goodbye to those you love, it is still worth putting your whole heart into loving and being loved by people. We had a fun goodbye/birthday party (Ben’s)! You can see some pictures on the side. Thank you to all of our wonderful friends in Sweden, we will truly miss you and we hope you’ll come visit us in Ukraine!

Being Holy, Being Human

I read a book today called ‘Being Holy, Being Human’ by Jay kesley – this next section resounded in my heart.
 
"I find that many bible teachers begin to feel guilty or afraid if their minds start entertaining doubts like these (Is there really a God? How could He let suffering happen?). They think such thoughts indicate a lack of faith. There was a time when I felt that way, too. My understanding now, however, is that most men and women of great faith down through the centuries have entertained such doubts. The psalms, for example, are full of expressions of deep doubt, especially those of David, “the man after God’s own heart.”
Faith is the conviction that there ought to be justice, that in some larger context there must be an answer. The questions we voice are actually expressions of a longing for satisfaction, a longing implanted by God. When we see evil triumph, the truly godless response would be to say, “So what else is new? Why shouldn’t the world be that way?”
One of the signs of faithful people is that they’re troubled by evil and injustice—even when they seemingly come about as “an act of God.” So such “doubt” is actually a seeking for God in the midst of confusion, and that’s a profound kind of faith. In fact, I might wonder about you a little if you claim never to ask such questions.
Humanity has struggled since the beginning of time with the attempt to reconcile the love and power of God with the pain we see around us every day. And it is a struggle if we’re honest.
Faith, as I have come to understand it, is not an absence of doubt. Only those who refuse to look at the world realistically never doubt. In that light, faith is not the absence of doubt. Faith is looking squarely at the evidence—the statements of Scripture as well as the confusing realities that suggest life is capricious and there is no loving God—and choosing, by faith, to continue in obedience and love toward God."
My faith, my security as a Christian, rests not in my impeccable logic and my ability to remove all doubts. It rests not in getting God all figured out. Rather, my faith rests in knowing God’s nature. As I have come to know him as a loving father, I can be assured of his forgiveness, his goodness, and his power.
In my own life, I have come to a point of being able to say that even though I still have doubts, by faith I will suspend judgment until God can explain it to me some day.

Frustrated!

There are two things that I could write about: the amazing week we have had and the extremely frustrated feelings I have right now. I think I will go with the frustrated feelings since they are the most recent. Last week our participants had their first practice teachings. After videotaping each person it is now my job to put that into a watchable format for them. This is so that they can see themselves and work on improving their teaching skills. The only problem is that our laptop has started shutting down whenever it wants! Basically, just before I get the video saved…CRASH! It has happened about 5 times tonight. I am not a happy camper! I give up. Tomorrow I will try again and maybe our laptop will cooperate with me. I am ALMOST ready to get a mac…

Titus Staff

Tomorrow is the last day of staff training. We have had a great time with our team. Let me quickly introduce them:
Reyna- A fun loving, kind hearted faith filled girl! She is Swedish, but she grew up in Guatemala and is now living in Taiwan.
Uan- Or ‘Auntie’ as Cassie likes to call her. Uan is from Thailand. She has a lot of wisdom, but she also makes us all laugh. She will take two of our participants back to Thailand to teach in churches there.
Josh- A Canadianl like us (Happy Canada Day to our fellow Canadians!), Josh has come from Grand Prairie Alberta to lead 3 of our particpants to Armenia. He is passionate and well educated but hasn’t lost his sense of humour!
Thanks so much you three for coming and making the first Titus Project in Europe a reality!
 

A Big Day

Yesterday was A Big Day!
 
I shouldn’t have to mention that in Fifa World Cup action, Paraguay advanced as #1 in group F. Just 3 wins away from the elusive prize! Then again, so are all the other remaining 16 teams.
 
Even better than Paraguay advancing, the students who have studied the Bible for the last year here are also advancing. Last night was graduation for all 6 of them. Incredible! My own university experience paled in comparison to the work I put in during my SBS (the same program as these students graduated from) so yesterday was a major accomplishment. Congrats to a job well done! (see pictures beside)
 
Our little family also received important visas for this coming year – that was really good news! Nothing better than knowing we are allowed to live where we hoped to.
 
And last but not least, yesterday was the last day before the staff arrive for Titus Project here in Sweden. Just one last week of prep before 3 weeks of teacher training and then sending them out to change the world! We are really excited! Lots of hard work translates into lots of excitement and expectation as everthing gets going.
 
So yesterday was a big day! And hopefully we will have many more…

Happy Father’s Day!

 
Check out the video to commemorate Father’s Day! 
 
Children need a Daddy
For many, many things:
Like holding them high off the ground
Where the sunlight sings!
 

Like being the great mountain
That rises in their hearts
And shows them how they might get home
When all else falls apart.

Like giving them the love
That is their sea and air,
So diving deep or soaring high
They’ll always find him there.

With much love to our Dads and our Grandpa!


Knowing the Unknowable

‎”The church isn’t here for us. We are the church, and we are here for the world. We need to become prophets of the unknown God. We must be the ones who say, ‘We have seen the invisible, we have experienced the unimaginable and we are here to tell you that what you do not know can be known.’…God is the unknown God, but He is not the unknowable God.” – Erwin McManus

Who is He?

This year I started reading through the bible again from the beginning. I just finished reading through the 2nd book Exodus (out of 66 books- lots to go!) and I was struck by two things. In that time everyone had their different ideas of who God was. They knew someone had to have created the earth, but what was He like? Mean? Nasty? Evil? Angry? Unfair?  So when Moses asked him, "Show me now your ways, that I may know you in order to find favor in your sight." He truly wanted to know what this God he was serving was like. How did God choose to reveal Himself? Of all the things He could have said He revealed this: "The Lord, the Lord, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness, 7 keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, but who will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children and the children’s children, to the third and the fourth generation." See the contrast between His steadfast love for thousands of generations compared to a few generations of iniquity. Just and Merciful! I love this God! The other thing that stood out to me was the final paragraph. God comes and dwells with His people. The God of the entire world dwells among men, He desires relationship and loves humanity! He truly is a wonderful God who created me. I love You Lord.

Family Time

There is lots to do these days: decide who is going on which team, prepare for staff training, design and print journals, participant binders, organize the classroom, find housing for staff and students, figure out how meals will work, book plane tickets, create budgets for teams…. okay you get the point- we have lots to accomplish and only a few more weeks.
 
BUT it is still very important to spend time together as a family just having fun, and so this past weekend we went to the nearby big city of Gothenburg. We visited an old church, walked in the oldest district in Gothenburg where there are lots of little cafes and shops, took Cassie to a Maritime museum and walked along a canal. We posted a few pictures of our ‘fun day.’ Hope you enjoy!
 

Long Days

I love summer days with the long evenings, just a really nice temperature and sitting on the deck drinkin’ an ice tea or around a bonfire. I just checked on the internet (what doesn’t google know?) and the sun is setting in Winnipeg around 9:30 pm this week, and then rising again at about 5:30 or so. That makes for a rather long day …
 
It just so happens that in our neck of the woods right now, the sun is setting a little later, around 10:00 pm this week and rises again at about 3:30 in the morning. Wow! And we still have 3 weeks before the longest day of the year! All I can say is that I’m really glad we have window shades on all the windows!!

Dedication and Sharing

A little over 6 weeks ago we were anticipating Jay’s birth. We had family coming in, we had planned a baby dedication and we were counting on Jay coming into the world by the 24th of April. Thankfully, with not too much time to spare, Jay was born on the 19th.
 
As I was looking through some pictures today I realized that we hadn’t posted any from that weekend. So while it may be late, you will see on the side of this page pictures that are from both the dedication and the pizza lunch/sharing time we had afterwards. During the sharing time we played ‘Who wants to be a millonaire’ and Kelly Dvorak displayed her vast array of knowledge of our lives and ministry (with the help of a few lifelines)! We also shared what we would be doing here in Sweden and our future plans for Ukraine. It was a really fun time. It is too bad all of our friends and support team who live in other parts of the world couldn’t be there. You were missed.

Kerry makes a life changing difference for a Bhutanese family

One of our wonderful friends and coworkers in Titus Project is Kerry Neve. She leads Titus Project in Montana and is a hero in our eyes! She has been taking bible teaching teams to Nepal for many years now and here is one story that has come out of those trips. This is an article from newspaper in Montana. This blog is longer than usual (but much better written since it by a professional!), however, it is well worth reading because it shows the difference that one person can make when they take active steps in life and not be passive to the issues in the world.
 
They were forced out of their native Bhutan because they were Christian.
They spent 17 years living in a Nepali refugee camp before immigrating to the United States. They lived for a miserable, fearful time in Atlanta.
Now the members of the Monger family has landed in Lakeside, where they have found a home and the promise of a new future in the Flathead Valley.
Bal and Kamala Monger and their 6-year-old son Deepak followed their faith to Lakeside last month, leaving behind a crime-ridden area of Atlanta where they had been resettled 18 months ago.
After living 17 years in a Nepali camp for Bhutanese refugees, Bal and Kamala, both 34, immigrated to the United States hoping to live the American dream. Instead they lived in fear after getting robbed a week after setting foot in the United States.
“Many of the people were not of good character,” Bal said of the impoverished ghetto where they lived. “If you had money, they would take everything.”
Bal and Kamala prayed for deliverance and it came in the form of Kerry Neve, a Bible teacher with Youth With A Mission who grew close to the family while teaching in their refugee camp. She said she was deeply moved by Bal and Kamala’s forgiving spirits and their story.
“I had never met people who were persecuted for their faith,” she said.
A devout Christian, Bal was a farmer forced from Bhutan, a majority Buddhist country. He said neighbors discovered his family celebrating Christmas in secret in 1992 and reported the transgression to police.
“They arrested us — they tortured me,” Bal said.
After three days, the government officials gave him a stark choice — leave Jesus or leave the country. He was torn because he loved his native land, a tiny country wedged between India and Tibet.
“Finally, for Jesus, I left the country,” he said.
Due to religious and ethnic tensions, one in six citizens fled Bhutan in the early 1990s, creating 108,000 refugees in United Nations refugee camps in Nepal. The Bhutan government maintains those expelled were illegal Nepalese immigrants who had fled years of civil war in Nepal.
For years, the governments negotiated, raising hopes among refugees like Bal that they would soon return to the land they say was their home since the 1800s. But it was not to be.
Neve recalls first meeting Bal on a bus from Katmandu when she first arrived in Nepal in 1999 as part of the Titus Project. Conditions in the camps appalled her.
“It was shocking. The huts are all squeezed very tightly together,” she said. “The walls are woven bamboo with newspaper for insulation. The roofs are straw and plastic and the floors are mud and cow manure.”
Families as large as 12 people lived in tiny huts of just a few hundred square feet.
According to Neve, the people had to continually rebuild the huts as weather took its toll. There was no electricity and families had to retrieve water by buckets from a central well available three times a day.
No refugees were allowed to work so they could not support their families or build a future. But that was the least of the troubles faced by the refugees.
“Elephants would come in and kill people,” she said. “A lot of people were killed by cobras.”
Yet, Neve was amazed at the joy with which Bal and Kamala and other Christians lived and their lack of bitterness toward those who had subjected them to such suffering. She had planned to stay two months on her first trip but ended up staying four months.
“I felt they were teaching me so much,” she said. “I think they were living the faith better than I was. God touched my heart with this group of people.”
Finally in 2008, several United Nations member countries agreed to take about 60,000 refugees. The majority resettled in the United States in various areas around the country.
When the family first received permission to immigrate to America, Neve tried to bring the family to Montana but was turned down by the State Department because the state has no resettlement program or office here.
Atlanta had public transportation, English classes, low cost apartments and jobs for people with limited or no English.
“It was good because they were able to receive help there,” Neve said.
But the government provides just four months of financial help so new immigrants must find work quickly.  The government also requires refugee immigrants to pay back the cost of their airfare to America. Bal and Kamala owed $3,941, a debt they have reduced to $2,300.
“I think it’s great our government does this but it’s no free ride,” Neve said. “Once they get here they want them to get on their feet and support themselves.”
In Atlanta, Bal earned $8 an hour at a pallet factory and Kamala worked at a chicken processing facility for $10 an hour. Kamala often put in 48 to 50 hours a week while making a two-hour commute.
“There are lots of jobs in Atlanta but the lifestyle is terrible,” Bal said.
Neve said she visited them in Clarkston in the heart of Atlanta. Although a world traveler, she was frightened there. Bal and Kamala kept their dream of moving to Montana as they stayed in touch with Neve.
They asked her to help them move and learn how to get established here. Neve said it was exactly what they had done for her as she faced the unfamiliar living conditions of the Third World in Nepal.
All the facilities, from the hole-in-the-floor stand-over toilet, to buses teaming with people and livestock, presented a challenge to the uninitiated.
“They taught me how to cook food, how to get from place to place and how to speak Nepalese,” Neve said. “I’m happy to help them in the same kind of way.”
She admits that she had deep reservations about helping the couple move to Montana because of the high unemployment rate and cost of living in the Flathead. Overwhelmed by fears, Neve nearly told the family to stay in Atlanta.
“How could I get a car, how could I get an apartment, jobs?” she said. “I got people together to pray with me.”
Neve decided to “let go and let God.” Just before they arrived in April, an apartment opened in Lakeside, a couple from Youth With A Mission donated a 2001 Ford Escape and several women provided all the furnishings and stocked the cupboards with food.
Bal and Kamala did much to help themselves in preparation for the move.
“I’m really proud of them for saving so much money — he’s someone who thinks about things,” she said. “They put away anything they could. That’s how they’re making it so far, by savings.”
Even through the family arrived in a terrible snowstorm on April 13, they have found Lakeside a welcoming community. Bal said everyone speaks to them by name at Blacktail Grocery Store and the bank, which are both within walking distance.
“It’s very good and peaceful here,” Bal said. “It’s beautiful.”
The Mongers have attended the Lakeside Community Chapel and the Lakeside Baptist Church. Their son Deepak goes to kindergarten at Lakeside Elementary School.
“He’s very excited — he has made lots of friends,” Bal said with a smile. “He does good. He speaks good English. He’s teaching us.”
Kamala now understands English but does not speak yet. Bal understands and speaks halting English. Both expect to master the language so that they may pass the citizenship exams after they have been here for five years.
“We’d like to make citizenship in the U.S.,”Bal said. “We love our country but there is no freedom there.”
 

Cows and Coffee

It is 8:30am (1:30am in Winnipeg) and I am sitting in our office, sipping a coffee, listening to great music and working on emails. Every morning after feeding Jay I will have a few hours in the office before FIKA (The Swedish tradition of a mid-morning coffee/snack break), then Ben and I will switch and he will come to our office and work while I hang out with Cassie and Jay. Pray for Ben, the SBS here just asked him yesterday to teach on the book of Zephaniah next week- not a lot of time to prepare, but he is excited! It is so good to finally be here and have the dedicated time to prepare for this upcoming Titus Project.
Hopefully in the next few days I will post a video that gives you a little overview of what the Sweden Restenas base looks like, but to give you an idea: 100 acres of rolling hills and farm land. Yesterday Ben and I talked about how we love the cow smell we often get a whiff of. There are LOTS of kids here so Cassie has tons of playmates, in fact our neighbour has a little girl a few months younger than Cassie so I am sure they will become good friends over the next few months! We’ll be getting back in the habit of updating this page often, so, in order to not miss one of our exciting entries (Wink) make us a ‘feed’ or one of your homepage tabs!

A few days of rest and away we go!

We were scheduled to leave Winnipeg on Friday, but after praying and thinking we decided to change our flights and leave a few days later. We needed rest. We were tired, cranky, stressed… not a good way to leave home and start travelling with a 2 year old and a newborn! And so, we became hermits in our home. We slept, we ate, we packed (slowly), and we played games together. Now we are ready for the next chapter! Titus Project Europe… Sweden. Ready or not here we come!