First Mother’s Day

I love this photo of me with my mom and brother. On this first mother’s day without my mom I was reminded of these words by Anne of Green Gables when she loses her adopted father Matthew.
“Anne, new to grief, thought it almost sad that it could be so—that they COULD go on in the old way without Matthew. She felt something like shame and remorse when she discovered that the sunrises behind the firs and the pale pink buds opening in the garden gave her the old inrush of gladness when she saw them—that Diana’s visits were pleasant to her and that Diana’s merry words and ways moved her to laughter and smiles—that, in brief, the beautiful world of blossom and love and friendship had lost none of its power to please her fancy and thrill her heart, that life still called to her with many insistent voices.

“It seems like disloyalty to Matthew, somehow, to find pleasure in these things now that he has gone,” she said wistfully to Mrs. Allan one evening when they were together in the manse garden. “I miss him so much—all the time—and yet, Mrs. Allan, the world and life seem very beautiful and interesting to me for all. Today Diana said something funny and I found myself laughing. I thought when it happened I could never laugh again. And it somehow seems as if I oughtn’t to.”

“When Matthew was here he liked to hear you laugh and he liked to know that you found pleasure in the pleasant things around you,” said Mrs. Allan gently. “He is just away now; and he likes to know it just the same. I am sure we should not shut our hearts against the healing influences that nature offers us. But I can understand your feeling. I think we all experience the same thing. We resent the thought that anything can please us when someone we love is no longer here to share the pleasure with us, and we almost feel as if we were unfaithful to our sorrow when we find our interest in life returning to us.”

Happy Mother’s Day Mom, still miss you more than ever, but still being adventurous and loving the beauty in the world and in relationships because I know that would bring you joy. Xoxo

An Overview of the Bible

The Bible is really incredible! Seriously, if you have never read it, you should! It is the #1 seller in the world. However, because it is made up of 66 books, it can be a bit confusing to figure out the overarching story, or meta-narrative. Ben is helping these students from all over the world (Africa, India, Europe & America mostly) see the big picture. So thankful to YWAM Rogaland for the chance to be a blessing here as well as for their sincere warm welcome.

Love the Lord your God

The Lord desires relationship with you and with me. That is the overarching theme of scripture, from the beginning in the garden, to the choosing of a people that will walk in faith and relationship with God (rather than the idols around them) and shine to the people around them so that they desire a relationship with that same God as well, to the sending of his son Jesus so that we can be in relationship with God, to the very end where God vanquishes and judges evil, and people can live in perfect relationship with a Holy God.

That is why he asks for love… love for him and others. Because God is love and he just wants us to walk with him, not ignoring him and doing our own thing all day long.

So as we are here in Norway, wanting to pray and ask the Lord, where does he want us after these 3 months? He has replied back to our hearts: before He leads us onto next steps, we need to be sure to stop and make sure we are seeking to love him alone, not just his plans for us, not just our next steps, but him. He is not a fortune teller or a vending machine that we get to just always take from, but He is the God of the universe, who is actually amazingly intimately involved in each person’s life, including ours, and our children’s lives.

So that has been a good reminder, a reorienting during this time, like pulling out a compass and making sure it is pointing in the right direction. Where to next? We don’t know, but that isn’t really the point, is it?